Somewhere between a study date in college and the quiet girl at work. As I drew her, I discovered she was playful and salacious, in the bookish way intelligent women are. The position she is in was fun to draw. I honestly think I love looking a naked body because it would be fun to draw. It’s a captivation rather than an attraction.
She is excited about a subject I have never heard of. My ex girlfriend used to start a sentence with “The fact of the matter is…” Then, state her case. Sharing both a curious & obscure thing that allows you to come to a new understanding. She was going to Law School. I thought that was so hot.⠀
I never understood a why a man would be insecure with a smart woman. I prefer a woman’s company because she is intelligent. More to say and a reason for me to want to be around. Chill with the vibe. No need to impress.
Paranoid. ‘Robot Heart’ series. Unable to trust your mind or anyone really. If you can’t trust yourself, the implication is you can’t trust your own judgment of character. And to make the obvious even more clear, because clarity is, in a way, all I want from this life. ⠀
If you have faith that someone will respect your well being because of X, Y & Z, it must be so. I perceive you to be truthful in how you present yourself. I should be able to tell if someone is lying or not. I am so aware… but what if you are not?
What if you know you can’t trust your opinion of people because your experience has led you to be skeptical of everyone’s commitment to mutual respect. I don’t expect anyone to ‘give’ me anything, but I do ask you do not deceive me. ⠀
Deception or breaking trust, is worse than killing. That intentional, malicious truth is worse than any lie.▪️
Remember when you got sick from drinking for the first time and you could taste this spring water fountain of acid pooling up in your mouth. You try to gulp it back and swallowing doesn’t work. Then you see smell or see something that turns your stomach instantly to PNJ leftovers.⠀
This was actually from the transformation. In this case, the guy was looking for a drink. Actually I imagined it kind of like a werewolf from “The Howling” where they just rip through their own skin, from the beast within.
This is where the rocker has been fully realized. I wanted to build up to this piece a bit. It is the largest of the drawing, something like 28 inches tall, and full color. Sort of like that movie “Pleasantville” where color comes back and the contrast has a more powerful impact. ⠀
The bottle gives him strength and there are so many parallels here. This is the romantic fantasy of a 20-something year old drunk. ⠀ ⠀ There is also a photo taken of me when I was at this club in San Francisco. There was no one behind the bar, so I went behind it and told my friend to take a photo of me putting one of the well liquor back. It was quick and just for fun, not just a sad guy that couldn’t help himself.
No one should be left behind. Like eating all the pizza before you get a chance to have a slice.
A crucial moment where the father abandons the mother and takes the son with him. His property essentially. And now he had to manage his property. To maintain. Forget about it. Was a long time ago. That’s what they would say.
“Don’t make me upset, I really don’t want to hurt you” ✍🏼 by Dan Victor
It’s part of the narrative. Ductape Halo is confronted by the aggressor. The ‘bad guy’ is someone I don’t like to refer to as absolutely evil. It is easier to assume someone is either good or bad, but very confusing when people are a combination of those with varying degrees according to circumstance.⠀
So when I think of this piece, it is the story telling itself over and over. Every time I read it, I see something new. That is true of all media. The art isn’t changing, your perspective has.⠀
The intention of a painting is to witness your life through it. A successful piece will continue to do that. ⠀
I tried doing a layout for the concept art I was drawing. I figured make the drawing and I’ll put it together later. It’s been about 12 years since I drew the ‘Robot Heart’ series dedicated to the album by Ductape Halo by the same name.▪️
“Impressions I left of myself” ✍🏼 by Dan Victor.
📓 Yet another drawing from the “Robot Heart” graphic series. I kind of like the way my feed is going with all the black and white sketches. It’s almost like the graphic novel I always wanted to put together is materializing over 10 years later. Each drawing is of another panel with a caption of the photo that tell the story the way a comic book would write a monologue of the villain. Are you digging it?⠀
I will bring color back as spring rolls out in full force. Such a nice day today. Enjoy the beautiful planet we live on.
📓 Self portrait in the reflection of dryer, back when I was living in Jersey City. This was the most dangerous neighborhood I ever lived in. Which is saying something, I currently live in Bushwick, so how bad could it be?
It was 2004 in Journal Square when I saw my first massive gang fight below my window. It was a block from the police station / courthouse. It was the sound of many hands smacking against other people’s skin that sticks in my mind. There was a crack dealer on the stoop across from my building. I could have bought a gun if I wanted to.
This drawing reminds me of that time I lived in a 5,000 sq ft. loft in Jersey City, with now windows in my BR and a mile & 1/2 away from the PATH. I did make a lot of art. Good times.
📓 Origins story that set the tone for the rest of his life. Think about Batman, one of the most beloved superheroes. The life that he was robbed of, all the money couldn’t bring back what Bruce lost. How much good he could do? Would that heal him. A compulsion to serve a purpose. A reason to be.
💥 Why couldn’t he just enjoy the many advantages a billionaire has?
This is an example of when the father would not have time to consider anything, but work. Laser focused on a goal that didn’t include his family. Another illustration from the ‘Robot Heart’ series. Ultimately he is avoiding the relationship while fulfilling his obligations. Great Sonic Youth poster in background. Washing Machine album.
Don’t we all have a desire to have a meaningful connection?